There’s an old saying that says “There is no time like the present” and it couldn’t be more true. Time is such a weird thing. It is something that freaks me out and excites me all at the same time. Time is something I think we take fore granted, it is something we under estimate and sometimes I think we use it as an excuse. For a long time I have been saying that I want to move overseas. “It will happen it’s just not the right time,” “I am not established enough yet,” “I don’t have enough money” or my favourite “I want to travel with someone.” All excuses I have made for myself. Do you know what speaks louder than any of these excuses? The fact that I am scared. I am scared because I don’t want to be alone. I am scared because I don’t want to be lonely. I am scared because I don’t want to loose everything. The truth of the matter is I am not going to loose anything. Even if I move overseas and nothing works out and I have to move back to New Zealand at least I will have that experience. In this world, in this life experience is EVERYTHING. It’s better to go and try something and know that it didn’t work out rather than just sitting around wondering what it could have been if you had tried.
To be completely honest with you I am tired. I’m tired of the excuses, I am tired of waiting. Tonight I realised this is my life. This is my opportunity. This is my chance to go where I want to go. I don’t have to think about anyone else. Life isn’t always going to be like this. Eventually I would love to meet someone and start a family. Right now it’s just me, myself and I. There is no one I have to think about, no one I have to take care of. My spirit is free to do what it wants, go where it wants and to explore freely without justification. Life isn’t always going to be like this. It’s one of the few times in life with no boundaries, no expectations and no responsibilities. I have the ability to do anything and I am going to do my best to do everything. Live a full life of experience.
This might be the only opportunity I get in life to do something completely for myself. My advice is to travel with no expectations the options are literally endless. You might meet the person of your dreams, find your dream job, live in that city you’ve always wanted to. You might meet your idol, you might decide that your home town is where you want to be and that your family are who you want around but you need to spread your wings and find these things out for yourself. People will tell you how to live your life. People will try and give you advice. You’re going to fall in love and have your heart broken and sometimes it’s the heartbreak that gives you the inspiration to get back up and keep going. Sometimes it’s the confusion that leads you to a brighter future. You really don’t know what the future holds. Try not to burn any bridges because you never know when you might need someone back in your life but remember this life is yours and sometimes you just have to live it for yourself. Yes it sounds selfish but there is only so much you can do for another person. It doesn’t matter how much you’re prepared to give them if they don’t want it then there’s no point.
Try not to overthink the situation. Everything in life works out. Usually it’s right when you’re thinking about giving up that the magical moment happens. Never loose hope but have your wits about you and don’t be afraid to look after yourself. Sometimes the kindest thing you can do is be selfish. Remember life has no right or wrong answers you’re just a small fish in a big pond trying to find your way. There is nothing wrong with getting lost along the way. Find yourself, think about where you want to be heading and learn from everything that happens along the way. Knowledge is power after all.
Let’s be real for a minute. The time is never going to be right. You just need to decide that an adventure is what you need and you need to go on that adventure. You don’t have to decide right now where you’re going to go. Apply for as many visas as you want to. Keep your options open. With every door that closes another one opens and with every opportunity comes a new beginning. A beginning for you to live life to the full.
I really hope all of your wildest dreams are waiting on the other side of this adventure.
Now go and find it.
All the love.