Anxiety

Anxiety is one of the worst feelings ever. It’s something that nobody else really understands and often you don’t really want to talk about it because you feel pathetic freaking out about something that might not seem like a big deal to other people. The truth of the matter is that your mental situation is totally unique to you. You’re the only person who has experienced the things you have been through. You are the only person who has felt the things that you feel. You shouldn’t ever feel bad or pathetic for feeling a particular way.

Life is full of change sometimes we’re not ready for the change. Sometimes life gets so good that you’re worried it will change for the worse. We don’t have a lot of control over the things that happen to us. The only thing we can do is work hard, treat people with respect and try and understand their situations. No human is perfect no human ever will be perfect. The idea of being perfect is unattainable. The closest you will ever get to perfect is just being yourself. You were crafted as a gift to the planet. You might not know your purpose yet and that is totally fine in time you will figure it out. Personally I have no idea what my purpose is, I’m not sure if I ever will figure it out. While I try and decide what I want to do I just want to make people happy. Whether it be a goofy videos, a blog post or 5 minutes at the end of the day where someone is listening to my radio show and I can make them smile that is really all I want from life.

I often get caught up worry about things that don’t really matter all that much. I am going through a time of transition in my life at the moment. Its strange they say you become an adult when you turn 18 and yeah that might be true but you don’t just turn into an adult overnight. You have more freedom and independence but personally I don’t feel like that makes you an adult. I still don’t feel like an adult now. I’m still figuring out so much, I am still finding my way in this wild world. For the most part life is ticking along nicely. I am really enjoying my job, I have a cool group of friends and for the first time in a long time I feel as though I am making progress. In saying that there are some days where I just feel lost. I feel like society expects you to have done certain things by a particular time in your life. For example it’s the “norm” to be in a relationship, get married, buy a house, have kids and settle down. Sometimes it is hard to remember that you don’t have to fit into this “ideal life.” That might be the norm in society but it might not be your dream. You are your own person and I don’t ever want you to feel like you have to fit in. There is a mould but you are unique and you might not fit into the mould. Just because you are a boy it doesn’t mean you have to have a girlfriend, just because you were born a boy it doesn’t mean that was what you were intended to be. Just like we make mistakes in life sometimes mistakes happen in the chemicals that make us. In life people will judge you, the mis informed will think some aspects of your life were decisions. In all honesty a lot of life is luck. A lot of things aren’t decisions we make. It is the chemicals inside us that make us the way we are. Our situations aren’t decisions we make. It wasn’t my decision to be born in New Zealand into a family that would love and support me no matter what. That was luck. I have been very lucky in some aspects of my life and not so lucky in others and that is totally fine. You just have to focus on the good stuff and learn from the stuff that doesn’t make you feel good.

Things might be a challenge for you at the moment. You might be struggling with finding yourself, finding a job or maybe you’re just at a cross roads and you’re not really sure what to do. My advice to you is take a deep breath. Rather than worrying about everything that is going on identify the things you would like to improve. When you know what you would like to improve decide ways you think you can improve these issues. You might not be able to improve them right now but at least have a plan. It might not work out the first time but in time you will work it out.

Stay true to yourself. Stand up for the things you believe in. Let the pain of yesterday be your inspiration for tomorrow. Your wounds will heal, the scars might not but each scar is a testament to your strength.

Stay safe, have fun and be kind to everyone.
Cam x

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